Seperated Shoulder!

My shoulder is killing me, this is the most miserable I have been since I have been at Cortland. I'm furious at how much this hurts. Theres a good chance I wont be able to play this weekend vs Fredonia and Geneseo. I have been going to our trainer Kristen everyday 3-4 times a day to get treatments on my shoulder. I have done Ice and Stim everyday, Also heat pads and Ibuprofen. It's frustrating because I'm puting in so much work to get back to be able to play and the strides I'm making are miniscule. The thing that kills me the most is this has happend before! I have seperated both of my shoulders in the past. It was at the end of the season so It didn't effect me as much as this is now. I sucked it up took some pain killers and played through the pain, than had all summer to recover, now im facing the challenge of playing and getting hurt worst, or siting out which hurts me more then any injury could. I don't know what to do and it's eating me up inside. I came to Cortland for hockey, not being able to play is the worst part about it. I'm not sure what to do or what else to talk about in my blog because this is all thats on my mind, and all that will be until I'm back to 100%. I'm just trying to figure out what I can do. I guess I'm doing all I can to help recover, I hate to see my team play knowing I'm not helping there cause, which bring up the question I have been asking this whole time! should I sit in the stand and be in pain, or get checked against the boards every shift and wish my shoulder was not connected to my body. Well thats a pretty negative blog, but thats whats going on in my life right now, I expect to see everyone at the games Fri and Sat....Cheers